Round 19

Over the past few months there have been a few rounds I have started and cancelled for one reason or another, in fact looking back the last time I got any eggs at all was in February this year. I have been trying for months now just to use this last round from the package I purchased with my U.K. Clinic and things haven’t worked for one reason or another. I had almost given up hope that they would to be honest. I knew as I got older it would get harder and it was hard when I started so I though, having had 6 months with no success, that that was it….. it was time for me to walk away and just be happy with the 15 eggs I have already frozen and forget the last round I had paid for with my U.K. Clinic.

This round I was thinking would be my last, my body is tired and I’m ready to start living not living on eggs shells. So I went into this round with an open mind but in all honesty not being too hopeful.

5 days into stimulation and things weren’t looking great. Dr Greg is away so I have had to see another doctor in the UAE. She has been lovely but seeing a new doctor who doesn’t know me is always hard when you are doing something like this.

7 days into stimulation I went back to see the doctor not hugely hopeful that I would be making the trip to the U.K. For any collection this time and things were looking up. With three follicles in the double digits the doctor believed things were happening and was hopeful. A holiday in the UAE making it a 3 day weekend meant that flying to the U.K. For a scam and bloods on the Friday was important if we were going to get the collection date right, so rather than having a weekend of yoga and relaxation I’m sitting at the airport U.K. bound for hopefully the last time for this reason. I have said it before but I really am ready for this chapter to be over.

Thr timing of my trip couldn’t be better, because today my older sister had her third baby, a healthy little girl who I can’t wait to meet tomorrow when I arrive, just one day old. The timing of this trips feels like I have literally come full circle, I started this journey 18 months ago, and now here I am at round 19 off to the UK to meet my new niece hopeful so that I to will one day have this amazing amazing experience that my sister is having today of welcoming a new little person she has created into this big wide world. I think whatever happens at the end of this round I will beable to say I have done all that I can to give myself as much chance as possible and that, I think, is all that I can ask of myself.

I don’t know what the next few days will hold for me but I am hopeful that within the next week I will be in a position to close the egg freezing chapter of my fertility journey . Then I need to decide if I am going to keep waiting for Mr Right or try and go it alone with a sperm donor.  I think it’s time for the next chapter, this one has taken a lot longer than expected.