Treading on Eggshells

It’s day 9 of stimulation and things aren’t looking that great.  I keep looking back at previous rounds to see if maybe there is a pattern occurring but it seems that every round is so different.  Today my scan showed 1 growing follicle on the left ovary and 2 small follicles on the right that don’t seem to have grown much in the past 9 days.  I think the doctors both here and in the UK are thinking this round is a ‘no go’ but I am so desperately hoping that things will improve over the next few days.

I’m literally treading on eggshells trying to do whatever it is I should do to make these follicles grow, sadly i haven’t figured out what that is yet, even after 12 rounds!  You would have thought by now I would have some sort of routine or know what to expect but….. nope, still no idea how to get these suckers to grow!

This round I have had serious headaches, almost migraine like that have knocked me down and out.  This only happened in one previous cycle and I have no idea if that is a good or bad things in terms of showing that things are working.  I have given up on trying to read the future and predict what might happen each round.  I think i just have to let go and believe that there is a plan.  Let someone bigger than me (maybe Santa) be in control of this one.