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Pregnancy Test Day
Monday 28 June – 12 days after my transfer and this was the day I took my pregnancy test. Whilst I know it is good to stay positive, by the time I…
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D day – AKA Conception Day
I don’t know if you do have a ‘conception day’ as such with this process, I mean is it on “Day 0” which is the day they defrosted 9 of my eggs and…
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Welcome To The Clinic
Final scan and blood test day has arrived and its off to the clinic I go. Being slightly underwhelmed by Northern Cyprus itself and the five star…
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Cyprus Bound
Its finally here, I am on my way. The last six year journey has led to this very point, I have resigned from my job, I am in the final few months of…
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Back to Baby Making
So……. It’s May and I’m almost at the end of my ‘pill month’ and let me tell you how it has gone so far. Finding an amazing doctor in the UAE Now that…
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Getting You Up To Speed
The last 12 months have been a bumpy road! I don’t think anyone could have predicted just what an impact Covid would have on the world. I have been…
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Judgement
Judgement – a funny thing really, as none of us want to believe we are judgmental people, but in reality aren’t we all? Likely not meaning to impose…
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Let’s Doula This Together
If someone had told me in my mid 20s that at 45 I would be unmarried and trying to have a child alone using donor sperm, I would have laughed at…
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Leaning into the Fear
Covid Caos COVID-19 hit the world by storm early this year and I think when it did everyone thought ‘lock everything down, give it a few months and…
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A BIG bump in the road, not my belly!
It has been almost 9 months since i last posted and i had hoped that this post would be about my next chapter and i would be on my way to Cyprus for…
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Get me back to being ‘SuperGirl’
This blog is about my journey to have a child, well initially about my egg freezing journey but now as I move beyond that its about using these eggs…
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Finally on the move
It’s been a while since my last post and that’s because a whole world of ‘nothing’ has been happening in my “having a baby” journey. I thought once I…
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Vegas Baby!
If you are reading this you are probably wondering what on earth Vegas has to do with my journey to have a baby! This is a fair thing to be wondering…
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It’s a Minefield out there
This journey is full of so many decisions, when should I freeze my eggs? when should I use my eggs? How many eggs are enough? what clinic should I…
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Choosing a Clinic
I am the member of a couple of Facebook groups, one that was specifically set up for single females wanting to have a baby on their own and another…
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It’s Time
It is the eve of 2019 and I am sitting alone in my cosy little apartment in a country where even talking about being a single mum could get me in…
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A Transportation Company NOT to use
I said when I started this blog that I wasn’t going to name people or places, but due to the lack of professionalism I have experienced along my…
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Last Hurrah
I’ve been taking Provera for the past few weeks to delay the start of my next period as I wanted to give myself one more try before I leave the UAE…
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HEFA Fee Overcharge
When I started this blog there were many things I didn’t know and whilst I am still relatively speaking an amateur at this whole thing I do feel that…
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Safe in their new home
I am pleased to say that on Thursday 22 March 2018 my 15 eggs finally made it from ‘old clinic’ to ‘new clinic’. It took over two months to…
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From A to B
Following on from the post titled ‘ Moving my most prized possessions ‘ I thought I’d give a bit of an update because the transportation from A to B…
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Go or no go for number 20?
This round was almost a non starter and to be honest I was probably being a little ambitious to even try and make it work. I was traveling for much…
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The Never-Ending Journey
Round 23 Round 23 has been an interesting and yet again an unpredictable experience. I mean you can’t make this shit up!!!….. I think all the…
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Moving my most prized possessions
Now that I have safely changed clinics and have had a couple of rounds with the new clinic I thought it would be a good idea to move the eggs that I…
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The Night Before Collection
I haven’t been very active with my blog writing lately…. partly because life has been busy and partly because I haven’t wanted to tempt fate and…
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New Clinic…. New Start
For the last few months I have been hunting for a new clinic. Criteria were simple, a clinic that would be prepared to work with my doctor in the UAE…
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My Christmas Wish Came True
For those of you that have followed my story you will know that last Christmas I had a pretty devastating experience with one of my rounds and it…
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Another unexpected hurdle
This journey seems to be one hurdle after another. The minute you think you have passed over the final hurdle another one pops up so unexpectedly and…
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Resilience
I have come to learn that the sadness one experiences from a failed round of egg freezing is thankfully for me short lived. It’s complete…
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Searching for the positives
I wanted to give myself every possible chance to become a mum, but maybe it’s just not in the cards for me. As I look back at my egg freezing journey…
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How do I know more than my doctor?
Its Monday evening and egg collection was scheduled for this Wednesday morning. That was what I was told at my scan this morning, however at 4pm…
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Full Circle
Over the past few months there have been a few rounds I have started and cancelled for one reason or another, in fact looking back the last time I…
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One step in front of the other
I think i may have lost count as to what round this actually is. The last few rounds I have started and then shortly after starting stimulation i…
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That Happy, Sad, Guilt Feeling
Yesterday my older sister told me she was pregnant with her third child. Those of you who have read my blog and followed my journey will know and…
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Injection Expert!
With 6 injections alone today and more than 38 over the past 16 days it’s no wonder my stomach looks like it’s taken a beating! I have so many…
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The only egg this Christmas is in my eggnog!
Round 12 ended in the only eggs i’ll be seeing this Christmas being in my eggnog! Sadly by the time collection was scheduled i had already ovulated.…
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Treading on Eggshells
It’s day 9 of stimulation and things aren’t looking that great. I keep looking back at previous rounds to see if maybe there is a pattern occurring…
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All I want for Christmas is some eggs!
It is 16 days before Christmas and everyone seems to be asking “what do you want for Christmas?” Is it inappropriate to answer “this year, all I…
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Eggceeding Eggspectations
This could quite possibly be the first time on my egg freezing journey where things have gone better than expected! There are times when you think…
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Knowledge is Power
One of the main reasons we all choose a certain healthcare facility is because of a particular doctor…. right? Maybe it’s their medical experience or…
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Double Digits
I never thought I would be here at ‘Round 10’ to be honest, but then I never thought i’d need to freeze my eggs either! It surprising how things…
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Here we go again
Its 9am on Wednesday 31 August and here I am again at the airport waiting to fly for another quick trip to the uk to hopefully collect a couple more…
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I’m Not Alone
On Wednesday this week I went to see Dr. Greg in the UAE. It was good to see him, he’s always so chipper. He asked me about my time back in the UK…
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Great Eggspectations
Round 8 Egg Collection for Round 8 took place on Tuesday 16 August. It has taken me a few days to pull myself together emotionally and be able to…
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Off to the UK
Round 8 It is day 7 since the start of my period and 5 days into stimulation. I went for a blood test and scan today. This scan and blood test is…
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Dual ovarian stimulation
Today, Sunday 7 August, day 3 of my period and a scan with Dr. Gregg. In his own words things are looking good for this month with three follicles…
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Everyone is having a baby
One of the hardest things about being single in your late 30s and 40s is that all your friends are getting hittched and having babies. Good for them,…
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